Gah, I get way too involved in my stupid social matters. I really shouldn't indulge in such superficial things. I know I'm an emotional person; I hide that pretty well; but it's hard to try to be so together and.. well.. myself when I'm getting all wrapped up in things that don't even matter.

People are dying, starving, etc. All sorts of horrid things; and all I can think about is myself at the moment. I truly am horrible.

On to more important things, I suppose, I have the oppurtunity to get a full scholarship to a state college. Any of the UMass schools. There is a problem though: I don't want to go to UMass-- I want more than that. I want to go to Columbia. Because of money though, I'll probably end up going to UMass Amherst-- which I really don't want. If everything went my way, life would be like this:
2008- graduate high school
2009- travel Europe
2010- start college at Columbia
2014- graduate
2015- strike rich with book deal
2030- Nobel prize
2050- Get some kick-ass award
2051- Save the world

Now, I'm going overboard, but even so.. I'm quite ambitious, I suppose. I really want people to get my message; hear my opinion; start a revolution.

Ah, now I feel bad. I'm over my stupid petty matter. Weeee!

It's 2004 already. Doesn't really feel like a new year. Everything is pretty much the same (except my hair-- got it cut today, woohoo!).
I'm going to have to the the old New Year's Resolution thing. So, this year's resolutions:
-Eat healthier, exercise more
-Try to be friendlier in the morning
-Make at least 2 new friends
-Work on the novel more often
That sounds pretty good, I think. So far, I haven't exercised much and split a bag of candy with my friend, Debbie. Oh, well, mother-of-mine says to enjoy fast metabolism while it lasts.
Back to school on Monday. I don't really want to go. Most of what I learn, I don't need. How will algebra ever possibly help me in life? I want to be a super-awesome, world-famous author. What am I going to do? measure the cosine of one of my books? I would have to write triangle books, though. I don't really need most of what I learn in science class, but I actually enjoy that class. English, I'll obviously need, but I don't think there is too much more she can teach me about writing. Social studies is just dull. I don't care about whether I need it or not. It's dull. I suppose I should be grateful that I am even getting an education, but, hell, let me complain a bit.